On Tuesday I try to stay productive at work and stay late to make up time for leaving early this Thursday for x-rays with the dentist. When I eventually get home I go walking for one hour. It feels good to get the blood pumping, but my mind still wanders back to Person Ti_Ca regularly. I am very upset now and have barely slept in two days, but I just keep trying to plug along and live with a broken heart.
On Wednesday I have a good day at work and then rush on home to get in a workout with the weights. Person Ti_Ca takes the bus over and we have a short visit before I have to take him back home. But we are working through our mis-understanding.
Thursday is a slow and boring day at work and I can't wait for it to be over. I have some things to do at work but I'm not feeling enthused about them and end up not very productive at all. I leave work early and get an entire mouthfull of x-rays taken. The dentist and I look over the x-rays and see good strong bone density, no signs of decay or disease, and only a very small crack on the rear-most molar on one side that we'll keep an eye on. I rush on home and jump on the mountain bicycle to ride down past the aquarium and return for home. Today is one of the hottest days of the year but it feels good to get out and ride. After a shower I pick Person Ti_Ca up from school and we go medicine shopping since he is feeling a bit under the weather.
On Friday I lift weights in the morning and spend a lot of time mowing the lawn, trimming it, and then pulling two branches down from the big tree in the backyard. Since I'm tired now I'll cut up the tree branches later. Person Ti_Ca and I bake cupcakes and brownies for his family and friends. And then I drop Person Ti_Ca off at home for him to go with his friends to Knotts Scary Farm. I go on home, go for a long walk, and then get picked up by Person T_U to go watch the Long Beach Poly high school football game. It's an entertaining and close game until Long Beach Poly gets into their rythym in the second half and run away with the game. I'm in bed after 10 pm to read. Person Ti_Ca comes over at 2 am after his Scary Farm visit.
Saturday starts with qualifying for the Korean Grand Pric where my favorite driver only gets second and his team's streak of 16 straight poles is broken. I have a great extended (and then some) aquarium ride today and return home to clean up the two tree branches that I downed yesterday. Person Ti_Ca goes off with his sister to eat lunch and shop and I spend the time cleaning up paperwork and reading. When Person Ti_Ca returns we take a nap and then I drive him home for the weekend. For the remainder of the evening I do some reading and relax.
Sunday starts with a close Korean Grand Prix where my favorite gets a jump at the start and runs away with the win. I get out for the extended aquarium bicycle ride and it is uneventful accept for some "walking cause" where all of the walkers spread across the bicycle path. I see my Detroit Lions go down to their first defeat and I also watch the Indy Car race where a nasty accident causes the race to be red-flagged and eventually ended. One of the drivers dies from his injuries though they don't announce it during the broadcast as I watch. I get tired of the red flag and ride my bicycle to a new community-level bicycle shop for a tuneup. When I walk home I see Person S_SM through the window of the store that he works at and I give him a quick wave. When I get home I do some reading and watch the MotoGP race from Australia which does not go my way at all. Person Ti_Ca calls and announces that he is planning an outing with someone that I continue to feel threatened by. I've told Person Ti_CA that even if he does not consider hanging out with this guy a date, the other guy does. And that the other guy will be more aggressive this time around. And I also give Person Ti_Ca enough rope by saying that he should make his decision wisely and should consider the consequences. I don't think I'm getting through.
On Sunday night and into Monday morning I have difficulty sleeping again. I am thinking about things with Person Ti_Ca. At wit's end I call Tree in Thailand at 3 am on Monday morning (6 pm on Monday his time) to see if he is doing okay with all of the flooding. He said that his house and yard has flooded but they are still living there and his family is stock-piling food just in case. When I wake up at the 5:18 alarm I've probably had 4 hours of sleep. I struggle through the day and then get home for a very good workout with the weights and an extra set. Where did this workout come from? And then I do paperwork and read and work on websites until I crawl into bed for more reading and sleep.
On Tuesday Person Ti_Ca and I exhcange text messages and I think that all of the problems are behind us and we can go on building. After work I go for a long walk and pick up the mountain bicycle from a tuneup at the new bicycle shop on Atlantic boulevard near home.
On Wednesday Person Ti_Ca exchange some text messages that we both regret sending afterwards. I leave work early and pick Person Ti_Ca up on the motorbike and we go home and have a long discussion. We exchange ideas and thoughts and feelings and try to "right the ship" and get ourselves back on track. Afterwards we go eat Japanese food and then I drive Person Ti_Ca back home. I don't get in a workout today but I'll have to make up for it on Thursday.
I struggle through work on Thursday and Friday though a good bicycle ride after work on Thursday helps. Friday morning before work I wake up and look in the mirror and everything seems normal. After a few hours at work a co-workers says "What happened to your eye?". I don't know what she means and she goes on to explain that there is blood in my eye. When I look in the mirror the white of my left eye is red. I can still see clearly, but the white of the eye is red. It must be the lack of sleep and the stress, so I try to de-stress after work with a great session with the weights and mowing the lawn. I walk to the grocery store and buy supplies and start baking corn muffins but Person Ti_Ca comes over earlier than expected and catches me baking rather than with the finished product. But we relax and watch television and head for sleep.
I was supposed to go cycling with a neighbor in the morning but I'm tired and its a bit wet and cold so I just stay in bed. When I finally get out it is still foggy but I have a good very eventfull ride. On the way past the aquarium I run into my two ex-neighbors, Hope and Shora. They are out walking a new dog (the previous one died) and we have a 15 minute conversation to catch up on things. I had not seen them since they moved out. I continue the ride and put some extra miles in and turn for home. I catch up to a group of riders and I overhear them speaking Tagalog. So I search through the group and find my neighbor who I was supposed to ride with. I explain how I have not slept well and just stayed in bed. But we ride the remaining distance home and I hope to ride with the group soon. Person Ti_Ca have lunch and then work on homework and driving lessons. Eventually, as we do the driving practice and run errands, we stop for Japanese food and then I drop Person Ti_Ca back off at his house. When I get home I take some kava root extract to help me sleep.
The Kava root extract does its magic as I only wake up once throughout the night and the sleep is deep and robust. I wake up (almost) refreshed and turn on the MotoGP race from Malaysia (where I attended a few years ago). On lap three there is a nasty accident where a rider falls and the two riders behind him run into his back/neck/head. The race is red flagged and eventually cancelled as it is later learned that the rider has succumbed to his massive injuries. I take out the stress by increasing the weights and having a great workout. Followed by working on the roses and raking out some of the backyard that has me drenched in sweat - despite the morning being cool and foggy. I relax afterwards and try to put the accident out of my mind. I'm restless today, so I work on little activites and after a long phone call with Person T_U I go out for the extended aquarium ride and add a bit more. Today I am strong and have a fun ride. The warm shower feels good but I'm still restless so I do a minor trim on an overgrowing bush in the front yard and try to relax. I do get some reading in, but soon I'm pulling out the mop and washing the kitchen floor. Thankfully I start running out of steam and do some reading before calling an end to this tragic day.
I am very tired throughout the Monday work day. I find myself falling off into naps a couple of times during the day. I stay at work a bit longer than usual to make up time to leave a bit early on Tuesday. When I get home I work the abdominals, walk for 35 minutes, and stop off at the grocery store. Person Ti_Ca comes over and we relax for a bit. Later his sister picks him up to go home and I go off to read and to sleep.